How to Find Yourself Again
When You Feel Stuck
Dear Friend
If you’ve stumbled upon this page, it means one thing. You got tired of wondering:
Is there more to life than this?
You wake up every morning feeling like you’re watching your life happen to someone else.
You’ve checked all the boxes:
- ✦ Good Job
- ✦ Nice Apartment
- ✦ Decent Savings
- ✦ Hobbies that used to matter
On paper, you look successful. But inside? You feel like a fraud in your own skin.
“Is this all there is?” you ask yourself at 3 AM, staring at the ceiling.
The things that used to excite you now feel flat.
The goals that used to pull you forward feel meaningless.
You keep waiting for your “real life” to start, but it never does.
Your friends think you’re crazy. “You have so much going for you!”
they say…
But they don’t understand that having everything you thought you wanted can feel like the cruelest joke of all.
You’re not broken.
You’re not ungrateful.
You’re not spoiled.
You’re grieving an identity that died. And no one gave you the map for what comes next.
You’re living in The Becoming Gap:
the brutal space between who you were and who you’re becoming.
And traditional self-help wants to rush you through it instead of helping you harvest its gifts.
THE BECOMING GAP:
The Threshold Space Between Identities
The Becoming Gap isn’t a crisis of motivation.
It’s not a lack of ambition or gratitude.
It’s not something you can positive-think your way out of.
It’s that disorienting wasteland between identities — the moment when who you were no longer fits, but who you’re becoming isn’t fully formed yet.
It’s not a crisis of ambition. It’s a quiet collapse of certainty.
What it Feels Like:
It feels like living in a house where all the furniture is covered in white sheets.
Everything looks familiar but untouchable.
You move through rooms you once knew by heart, bumping into things that used to make sense.
The light switches are in the wrong places. The mirrors reflect someone you almost recognize.
You wake up feeling like a stranger in your own life. Your body moves through familiar motions, but your soul has evacuated the premises.
The career that once felt like destiny now tastes like cardboard.
The relationship that once felt like home now suffocates like a coffin.
The dreams that once pulled you out of bed feel like somebody else’s dreams… dreams you borrowed and forgot to return.
You look successful “on paper,” but you know the truth.
Behind the performance, you’re hollow.
You’re a beautiful building with no one living inside.
You’re no longer who you were… but you don’t yet have the words (or the courage) for who you’re becoming.
You keep asking, “What’s next?” but it’s like the universe has gone silent.
One woman described it perfectly:
“I feel like I’m sort of just waiting for the rest of my life to start. Like, if I were to die now, I’d be okay with it. I don’t feel like I’m going to actually get what I want out of life.”
A middle-aged man put it more bluntly:
“I feel like a bystander in my own life. It’s like I’m watching my life unfold rather than actively living it.”
If these words make your chest tight with recognition, you’re not alone.
The Moments That Shatter Your Identity
The Becoming Gap doesn’t just happen. It’s triggered by life transitions that shatter your carefully constructed identity… leaving you raw, exposed, and questioning everything:
The Pink Slip That Ends More Than Your Job. Suddenly, you’re not the Marketing Director or the Teacher anymore. You’re just… YOU.
And you realize you haven’t met that person in years.
Your identity was so wrapped up in what you did that without the title, you don’t know who you are.
You wake up tired even after sleeping for hours… like you’ve been working a night shift in your dreams.
You find yourself refreshing your email seventeen times, hoping for some external validation that you still exist.
The Breakup That Ends a Version of Yourself. The we becomes I and you realize you’ve been half of something for so long, you’ve forgotten how to be whole on your own.
You look in the mirror and see a stranger staring back.
Dating feels impossible because you don’t know who you are, let alone who you want.
You watch couples holding hands and wonder if you’ve ever felt that certain about anything.
The Burnout That Reveals The Truth. The relentless drive you thought was passion reveals itself as a desperate escape from stillness…
from silence…
from the terrifying question of… “Who am I when I’m not doing?”
Your body becomes a stranger:
food tastes different…
colors look muted…
music that used to move you feels like background noise.
Simple questions feel impossible:
“What do you want for dinner?” might as well be “What’s the meaning of life?”
The Awakening That Makes Your Old Life Feel Like a Costume. You’ve touched something real…
something vast…
something true…
and now the small talk, the surface connections, the hollow ambitions feel like suffocation.
Your old life becomes a costume that no longer fits.
Your relationships feel like speaking through glass.
Your friends ask how you’re doing, and you say “fine” because “I feel like I’m dissolving” isn’t small talk.
The Moment Time Becomes a Mirror. A birthday, a death, a season change that leaves you raw.
Time shows you how far you’ve drifted from who you meant to be.
Mortality whispers your name, and suddenly every choice feels loaded with consequence.
You cry at commercials, not from sadness but from a homesickness you can’t locate.
You dream about houses with rooms you’ve never seen but somehow remember.
Old photos make you ache for versions of yourself you’re not sure you ever really were.
You catch your reflection in shop windows and think, “When did I start looking so… tired?“
You start conversations with “I don’t know what I’m doing” more than you’d like to admit.
You Google signs you’re having a quarter-life crisis…
or signs you’re having a midlife crisis depending on your age, then feel weird about not fitting the descriptions.
You feel like you’re waiting for something, but asking “waiting for what?” just makes the feeling worse.
These aren’t failures. They’re invitations. Your soul is staging an intervention against a life that’s become too small for who you’re becoming.
But the moment your identity cracks open, something sinister swoops in…
The Voices in Your Head That Keep You Stuck
The moment you enter The Becoming Gap, a voice goes off like a siren.
It’s the voice of conditioning that’s been shaping your life. The internalized voice of a culture that profits from your performance and fears your authenticity.
It sounds like your mother’s disappointment…
your father’s criticism…
your boss’s impatience…
your ex’s final words.
It’s the internalized soundtrack of everyone who ever made you feel small… now playing on repeat in your own head, 24/7, in surround sound.
And its job? To get you back in line. Fast.
That Voice tells you things like:
✦“You’re Being Lazy and Ungrateful.”
It whispers that you should be grateful for what you have.
That feeling empty despite success makes you spoiled.
That questioning your life means you’re weak.
✦“Fix Yourself Fast.” It floods you with solutions: more goals, better habits, new skills, life coaches. Anything to get you doing instead of being.
✦“Your Time is Running Out.”
It reminds you of your age, your biological clock, your shrinking opportunities.
It creates panic that drives you toward any decision just to feel like you’re moving.
✦“You Need to Reinvent Yourself.” It sells you the lie that you need to become someone new instead of remembering who you’ve always been beneath the programming.
The Voice’s greatest trick? To make you believe The Becoming Gap is the problem.
Because that voice profits from your disconnection from self.
- ✦ When you don’t know who you are, you buy things to find out.
- ✦ When you don’t trust your own timing, you pay experts to tell you when to move.
- ✦ When you don’t believe in your own voice, you hire someone else to speak for you.
And this is why you shouldn’t rush to fix the Becoming Gap.
The Silent Dangers of Rushing to “Fix” The Becoming Gap
When you try to rush through The Becoming Gap, you fall into the most sophisticated trap, the voice has ever designed.
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You grab onto the next identity like a life raft — and end up just as empty.
New job, same hollow feeling.
New relationship, same disconnection.
New city, same inner landscape of longing. - ✦ You numb out instead of tuning in. Netflix becomes your religion. Shopping becomes your spiritual practice. Busyness becomes your drug of choice… anything to avoid the silence where transformation lives.
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You create from fear instead of love. Every decision becomes about safety instead of truth…
about fitting in instead of standing out…
about survival instead of service to your deepest calling. - ✦ You stay stuck in an endless loop of self-improvement without ever actually coming home to yourself. You become a consumer of wisdom instead of a creator of your own truth.
But here’s what that voice doesn’t want you to know:
The Becoming Gap isn’t a breakdown. It’s a breakthrough.
It’s not a problem to solve. It’s a sacred process to honor.
The breakdown isn’t breaking you.
It’s breaking you open…
breaking you free from a life that was too small for who you’re becoming.
But you need the right map for this territory. You need to silence the voice that’s keeping you stuck.
The Moment of Truth
There comes a moment—maybe it’s now, while reading this—when you see that voice clearly for the first time.
You suddenly realize… that voice you thought was protecting you has been destroying you.
You suddenly understand… those standards you thought were keeping you safe have been keeping you small.
It suddenly dawns on you… the life you’ve built isn’t actually yours… it’s what the voice convinced you to build.
And you finally whisper the words that change everything: “This isn’t me. This isn’t my voice. This isn’t my life.”
That moment of recognition?… That’s when the real war begins. Not the war against yourself. You’ve been fighting that one for decades and losing.
The war for yourself. The war to take your life back.
But the voice won’t quiet down easily. It’s been living in your head rent-free for decades, and it likes the accommodations. It will fight for every inch of territory in your mind.
It will call this awakening:
- ✦ “Selfish” (because wanting your own life is somehow wrong)
- ✦ “Impractical” (because living authentically doesn’t pay the bills)
- ✦ “Too late” (because you’re too old/damaged/far gone to change)
- ✦ “Ungrateful” (because you should be happy with what you have)
- ✦ “Unrealistic” (because big bold dreams are for other people)
But don’t listen.
Every lie it tells you is actually proof that you’re getting closer to freedom.
That voice only gets loud when it’s scared.
And right now? It’s terrified.
Because you’re waking up. And awake people are dangerous to systems that depend on sleepwalkers.
The Sacred Mechanics That Silences The Voice For Good
What I'm about to reveal not only quiets the voice; it replaces it entirely. With your soul's voice. The one that's been waiting patiently beneath decades of conditioning.
And it works not through force... or willpower... or positive thinking...
But through surrender and return... A return to self.
A Return To Self means:
- Coming back to your own voice after years of listening to everyone else's
- Returning to your own sense of time instead of the world's urgency
- Reclaiming your own definition of success instead of inheriting someone else's
- Remembering your own way of being instead of performing what's expected
- Reconnecting with your own inner compass instead of following external GPS
That return to self begins with:
The Becoming Experience
A 40-Day Practice Of Finding Yourself Again When You Feel Stuck
The Becoming Experience holds the precise sequence of words, practices, and inner movements that collapse the distance between who you are now... and who you are becoming.
Every single day, you'll move through five sacred movements.
Not because I like structure, (though the voice will tell you this is "too complicated" or "too much work")...
But because each movement serves a specific function in dismantling the voice's stronghold...
restoring your inner sovereignty...
And collapsing timelines for you:
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The Opening Invocation: Dear Future Me, I’m becoming you. The first time you write these words, something will go off in your brains. Not immediately—the voice will try to convince you it's "just positive thinking" or "manifestation hogwash."
But three days in, you'll notice something peculiar: you'll start feeling like someone is listening.
Because someone is.
The version of you that already made it through what you're going through right now.
The version that already remembered who they are beneath all the performance.
And they're reaching back through time to remind you: you're not broken. You never were. You just forgot. -
Present Self Check-In: Where you meet yourself without the mask. This is where most people want to skip ahead. The voice will tell you to "focus on the positive" or "don't dwell on problems." Ignore it.
This isn't about dwelling. This is about witnessing. How does your body actually feel right now?
Not how it should feel.
Not how you wish it felt.
But how it actually feels.
Tight shoulders from carrying everyone else's expectations?
Shallow breathing from years of holding your authentic reactions inside?
What's your mind spinning on? The never-ending list of shoulds?
The fear that you're falling behind? The exhaustion from performing who you think you need to be?
Here's what happens around Day 12: you stop needing to fix these feelings and start letting them be information. -
Shadow Truth Reflection: The archaeology begins. This is where the voice gets desperate. It will call this section "self-indulgent" or "too heavy" or "dwelling on the past." Just ignore it.
On Day 3: You'll uncover "The Hidden Roots of Drive."
Most people think their ambition is noble.
You'll discover it's often just trauma in designer clothes.
The part of you that learned love comes with conditions, so you've been trying to earn your right to exist ever since.
On Day 5: "Childhood Contracts." You'll identify the unconscious agreements you made as a child: "I'll be perfect so you won't leave."
"I'll be helpful so you won't be angry."
"I'll be small so you won't feel threatened."
These contracts are still running your life. Today, you get to cancel them. -
Message Across Timeline: Your future self speaks. The voice will call this "delusional" or "wishful thinking."
That's because it's terrified of what your future self might tell you.
Because on Day 18, Your future self reveals your "Unique Blueprint"—not your purpose or calling, but the energetic signature you came here with.
Before the programming.
Before the conditioning.
Before everyone else's expectations rewrote your inner compass.
And on Day 31: "Embracing the Unknown." Your future self whispers the secret the voice has been hiding:
You already know what you need to know. You've always known. You just learned not to trust your knowing.
The voice will fight this. It will flood you with "what ifs" and "but how will you's..."
Breathe through it. Let your future self remind you: the path reveals itself to those who walk it... not those who demand to see the whole staircase before taking the first step. -
Desire Declaration: Naming what wants to emerge. The final movement. The voice will call this "selfish" or "unrealistic." Pay attention to what wants to be spoken through you anyway.
Not goals.
Not plans.
Not shoulds.
The raw, rooted truth of what's stirring in the depths of your being.
"I want to create work that feels alive."-Day 16.
"I want to love without performing."- Day 25.
"I want to matter."- Day 33.
These aren't wishes you're casting into the universe.
These are recognitions of what's already true... already moving... already emerging.
The voice convinced you that desire was dangerous. Your future self reminds you: desire is your compass home. -
Closing Invocation: Thank you for reading these letters, I love you. Ciao. I'm becoming you.
Every day ends with this sacred tether. A promise to the part of yourself that already knows who you are.
The voice will minimize it as "just words." Your body will know better.
By Day 20... you'll say these words and feel them land differently.
Like you mean them.
Like they're true.
Like you're not just becoming someone new—you're becoming yourself.
The 6-Week Journey (And What You Get Out Of It)
WEEK 1: EXCAVATION | Liberation from fear and guilt
You'll meet the parts of you that learned to hustle for love. The overachiever, the people-pleaser, the one who thought perfection meant safety.
By Day 7, you'll feel something that might scare you: relief. Relief at finally seeing the voice for what it is... just programming
WEEK 2: EGO & IDENTITY | Dropping the masks; release of old trauma and the false self
In this week, you might get scared and want to quit.
Because on Day 10: "Identity Collapse," You come face to face with the terrifying and liberating truth: the person you've been performing all along isn't you. It never was.
And on Day 14, You meet who you are when you're not trying to be anyone else.
WEEK 3: POWER & PURPOSE | Reclaiming voice, desire, personal power, and soul-aligned impact
The voice will get loud here.
It will tell you that power is dangerous...
That purpose is privilege...
That you're not "ready" for either.
But don't listen, as Day 16 silences all of that.
You'll remember that your power was never the problem... hiding it was.
Your purpose was never missing... it's been buried under everyone else's expectations.
WEEK 4: EMOTIONAL RECLAMATION | Heart healing, softness, relationship with the inner child
By Day 22...
You'll give yourself permission to feel what you've been avoiding for decades.
Not to dwell, not to blame, but to reclaim the emotional intelligence you abandoned to keep others comfortable.
And on Day 28: You'll discover that your emotions aren't problems to solve—they're wisdom to follow.
WEEK 5: SURRENDER & TRUST | Spiritual clarity, intuition, letting go
Here, you're invited to lean into the power of stillness... Where nothing moves, but everything shifts.
Where answers don't come in language, but in energy.
On Day 31: "Embracing the Unknown," That voice will panic.
It will flood you with every reason why uncertainty is dangerous.
Your future self will whisper back: "The unknown isn't empty. It's full of possibilities the voice doesn't want you to see."
WEEK 6: INTEGRATION & EMBODIMENT | Divine alignment, wholeness, being
This is the return.
Not to who you were, but to who you were before the world told you otherwise.
Day 40: "Homecoming." Not to a place, but to yourself.
The version of yourself that was always there, waiting patiently for you to remember.
You'll write your final letter and realize: you're not becoming someone new.
You're becoming who you've always been beneath all the conditioning.
Why Should You Trust Me?
I created The Becoming Experience for me first— as a lifeline when I was drowning in a life that looked “successful” on paper, but felt empty in my bones.
The Breakdown That Led to the Breakthrough
Five years ago, I dropped out of school to chase my dreams in marketing and consulting. From the outside, it looked bold—like I was following my passion, making it happen.
Five years later, I had nothing to show for it. No success that justified the risk. No money that validated the choice. Just a résumé full of “almost” and “so close but not quite.”
I was squatting with friends, working long hours for scraps, living a life I actively resented. I felt like I had betrayed the person who’d been brave enough to drop out and chase dreams.
Even when opportunities finally appeared—like landing a shiny marketing role, or receiving a Category Design Academy scholarship, moments that should have felt like victory— the emptiness remained.
I kept getting flashes of reaching the mountaintop while mentally drowning in the marshes… A call to tend to my roots. And it didn’t make sense until I remembered: in agriculture, before transplanting a tree into more fertile soil, you first tend to the roots—to prepare it for expansive growth.
Similarly, I was being prepared for growth on a more solid foundation. I needed to strip away everything I’d inherited about ambition, success, and worth— everything about what dreams should look like. I needed to return to self—before the rise.
The Soft Call to A.R.T.S. (A Return To Self)
My return started with a simple urge to pick up the pen.
I began writing poetry again. Not for an audience, not for performance. Just as a lifeline. A way to breathe when everything else felt suffocating.
The art led me into unexpected territories: past life studies, quantum mechanics and consciousness work. I didn’t set out to study any of this. I just followed the thread of my own aliveness.
All different rivers leading back to the same ocean: Remembrance.
All of it showing me that art isn’t decoration—it’s a blueprint. A map back to who you were before the world told you who you should be.
The Birth of The Becoming Experience
Through this exploration, I discovered I could collapse timelines through writing.
I started writing daily letters to my future self—the version who had already lived the life I longed for. Who had already integrated the lessons I was learning.
These weren’t manifestation letters or goal-setting exercises. They were conversations between who I was and who I was becoming… between my current confusion and my future clarity.
The letters became my ceremony. My rebellion against despair.
And they worked. Not by giving me answers or strategies. But by helping me remember that healing and creation were never outside me. They were always waiting inside.
The practice taught me to trust the voice of my future self—the one who could see what I couldn’t yet see… Who could hold space for my confusion without trying to fix it.
Why This Matters for You
I’m not sharing this because I have it all figured out. I’m sharing it because I’ve learned to trust the process of not having it all figured out.
I’m not the guru who climbed the mountain and came back with tablets. I’m someone who learned to find the sacred in the valley.
The Becoming Experience isn’t theory. It’s a lived experience.
It pulled me out of hollow success and empty achievement.
It taught me to trust my own timing instead of everyone else’s timeline.
It helped me remember that I didn’t need to become someone new—I needed to remember who I’d always been.
I created this because nothing else spoke to the specific kind of lostness I was experiencing: Where you look successful but feel empty… where you’ve achieved goals but lost yourself in the process.
Now it’s yours too. Not because I’m perfect, but because I’ve learned to make friends with the mystery.
I want you to have it, so you get to experience what it’s like when the voice goes quiet.
It’s like “coming alive.”
Colors get brighter. Food tastes better. Your body feels like yours again.
You stop checking your phone compulsively because you’re not hungry for external validation anymore…
You start creating for the pure joy of creation.
You remember what it feels like to be in your own life instead of watching it from the sidelines.
The voice doesn’t disappear entirely… it just becomes background noise. Like a radio you can finally turn down.
Your soul’s voice… the one that’s been whispering beneath the chatter for decades, finally has room to speak.
And when it does, you remember things:
- ✦ You remember that you don’t need permission to take up space.
- ✦ You remember that your sensitivity is a superpower, not a weakness.
- ✦ You remember that your dreams don’t have expiration dates.
- ✦ You remember that authenticity isn’t a luxury—it’s your birthright.
Hear What Others Had To Say
“I was silently stuck in this in-between space for so long, performing this version of myself that wasn’t real. The daily letters helped me slow down and listen to myself again—not the performance version, but the real me.”
Felix
“I’m on Day 6 of the Becoming Experience. I highly recommend this for anyone wanting to excavate the gold that is in each of us. Alchemy for the soul.”
Caroline
“This experience forced me to become kinder to myself. It taught me how to step out of performance mode and into stillness—outside of hustle culture.”
Greatness
“I was trapped hard in connecting my worth to what I achieve. But Day Four helped me see that I’m enough simply by existing. My worth is already here, like a ripe fruit waiting to be recognized, not earned.”
Egai
“What you’re birthing is more than a program—it’s a return map. A preservation of tone for those ready to remember.”
Brandon
“When I read the prompts, my heart literally went cool. It felt like peace in the middle of emotional chaos. This work brings you back to your soul.”
Jessica
Now’s Your Chance To Join Those Who Are Finding Themselves Again
I won’t tell you this is easy. Easy things don’t change lives.
I won’t tell you this will fix everything. The magic here isn’t about fixing—it’s about remembering.
But I will tell you this:
The part of you that brought you here and has read this far already knows.
It knows you’re ready to stop living like a character in someone else’s story.
It knows you’re tired of achieving goals that don’t feed your soul.
It knows that the voice of your future self has been trying to reach you, and now you’re finally ready to listen.
The Investment That Pays You Back
The Becoming Experience is $40 USD. $40 for forty days.
$1 for each day you choose to remember who you are beneath all the noise.
$1 for forty days of conversations with the version of yourself who has already walked through the fire you’re currently standing in.
$1 for forty days of remembering that healing isn’t a destination—it’s a daily practice of coming home.
I could compare it to a cup of coffee or therapy sessions, but this isn’t a transaction for me. This is a transmission.
$40 to stop abandoning yourself in the name of success.
$40 to stop wearing masks that suffocate your soul.
$40 to remember that the life you’re seeking isn’t out there. It’s waiting inside the version of you that you’ve been too afraid to become.
I Feel Tempted To Share This With You
There’s something else. Something I probably shouldn’t tell you, but…
While you’re going through this journey, there will be sounds. Solfeggio frequencies that bypass the voice entirely and speak directly to your nervous system.
- 396 Hz (Week 1) dissolves fear and guilt at the cellular level. The frequency that helps your body release decades of “I’m not enough” and “I should be different.”
- 417 Hz (Week 2) facilitates change and removes negative energy. The frequency that makes identity collapse feel like relief instead of death
- 528 Hz (Week 3)– the love frequency. Not romantic love… but the recognition that your essence is inherently loveable without modification or performance.
- 639 Hz (Week 4) harmonizes relationships and emotional connections. This frequency helps you reconnect with parts of yourself you abandoned to keep others comfortable.
- 741 Hz (Week 5) awakens intuition and inner wisdom. It clears the voice’s mental programming, creating space for your actual knowing to emerge.
- 963 Hz (Week 6) returns you to spiritual order. The frequency of integration, where all the excavated parts of yourself finally come home.
You’ll receive all of them… Because transformation without somatic recalibration rarely lasts.
The voice lives in your body as much as your mind.
These frequencies help your nervous system remember: authenticity is safe. Truth is safe. You are safe.
Here’s What You’re Actually Paying For
When you really think about it, you’re not buying a course. You’re buying permission.
Permission to stop pretending hustle culture has your answers.
Permission to trust that your timing doesn’t have to match everyone else’s timeline.
Permission to believe that the voice of your future self is more reliable than the noise of the world.
Forty days of conversations with the version of yourself who has already walked through the fire you’re currently standing in.
Forty days of remembering that healing isn’t a destination. It’s a daily practice of coming home.
The voice will try to stop you here. It will flood your mind with every reason why this isn’t the right time:
✦“You don’t have 45 minutes a day.” (But you spend more than 45 minutes scrolling social media.)
✦“This sounds too intense.” (Living disconnected from yourself is more intense.)
✦“What if it doesn’t work?” (What if it does, and you miss your chance?)
✦“You should save this money.” ($40 is less than what you’ve spent on lunch this week.)
✦“You can figure this on your own.” (How’s that been working out?)
These aren’t your thoughts. They’re the voice’s last desperate attempt to keep you small, safe, and under its control.
But you’ve read this far. Some part of you recognizes what’s being offered here. Some part of you is already stirring, already remembering, already becoming.
Don’t let the voice win. Not this time.
Your Two Choices
You have two choices right now:
1st Choice
Close this page. Go back to your life.
Keep performing, keep achieving, keep waiting for permission that will never come.
Keep listening to the voice that’s been running your life into the ground.
Stay stuck in the same patterns, the same limitations, the same suffocating smallness you came here to escape.
2nd Choice
Trust the part of you that brought you here.
Invest $40 US in the most important conversation you’ll ever have—the one with your future self. Commit to forty days of remembering who you are when you’re not trying to be anyone else.
Give yourself permission to come home.
The voice will tell you to think about it, sleep on it, wait for a sign.
Your future self is telling you: This is the sign.
